justkillme*

220705

2005-07-22T19:40:00.000+08:00

well.
today wasnt good.
ytd too.
guides was ..
wasnt really in the mood.
well.
but friday will still be fav day. (:

why must you be like that ?
whad do you exactly want ?
i am not pissed. at all.
just wondering why.
whywhywhy.
call me petty or whadever i dont care.
i'll only be petty with ppl i really care and like.
towards other ppl i wont even care.
serious.
dont let me think being nice to you is just a waste.
but ive never thought that way.

glad that the later part of the day was better. =)

I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to youThe way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

i like songs coz of their lyrics.
this song is dedicated you.
winkkies*
another person btw.
hahas.
yoda yada yumda.
my entire world just revolves around you.
and you alone.
just realised my world just stops spinning without you.
:(
no one will be the cure.
i want you to be beside me always.
no way im gonna let others take you away.
no way !
i love you. (:
straight.
so hurry repair your com ! xD

200705

2005-07-20T15:22:00.000+08:00

so damn irritating.
that bloody printer isnt working again.
any kind soul around ?

this week was a killer.
tho its only wed now.
had napfa test 2.4 on monday.
a horrible nightmare.
perseverance.

had music on tusday.
and i so dont like guitar.
anything related to music.
i wont like it.

tests today.
i dont like science.
shesh.

i'm looking forward to tmr !
;)

cut all the pretence.
=X
lets make the line clear.

160705

2005-07-16T16:59:00.000+08:00

i'm suppose to be studying now.
sighs-
no mood.

had a great chat with jeralyn lim late at night.
i'm super grateful.
confided everything to her.
feeling much relieved.
i dont know why the trust is just there.
all i needed at that time was a someone who can listen to me.
not givining me some superficial assurances and bleh.
and i'm not pointing fingers at anyone.
i see thoughts in her words.
i so love her ! more that words.
of course. she's a lim !
my winkkiie. ;)

and i start recalling,
all the words i had said,
all the promises i had made,
all the things i used to strongly believe in.
And i'm feeling all numbed already.

i've been feeling so afraid,
that i'll repeat the same mistakes again,
to those so dear to me right now.
i'm so afraid it would turn into lies to them,
so afraid to give all i can now,
because at the end when i fail,
it just reflects how badly i've kept to my words.
unlike her.

Girl there's no place too far,
for me to go and be with you.
Travelling travelling round the world.
Girl tell me where,
tell me where'

i want amanda and natalie to be online right now.
i love webcam.
to see natalie's dimple !
hohohos.
xD

140705

2005-07-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

i would be happy to know that at least you care.
but its not you yuanting.
not you.
dream on.

120705

2005-07-12T11:49:00.000+08:00

did i say i love natalie ?
hahas. natalie is super cute !
her funny faces and dimplr !
shesh.
natalie rawks.
adeline rawks.
amanda rawks.
isadora rakws.
chasristoh rawks.
sylvia rawks.

everone rawks.
those that helped me one way or another.
whoolala !
*winkkies

i hesitated.
but for her i can just give up everything.

another person.
i dont expect you to forgive me.
coz i cant forgive myself.
is this feeling mutual ?
the mixed feeling.
just one more chance.
and i will repent.
i will.

070705

2005-07-07T20:12:00.000+08:00

ive just written a post.
but its gone.

tue
went out with ade after school.
make a sudden decision to go gym.
the people there are so whoaa.
we didnt sweat at all actually.

wed
the lit journey is stupid.
went to childcare after school.
glad that this time the children rmb us.

thurs
hohos.
today is fun.
the after school part.
went ps with mummy and charis.
had fun chatting.
(:

no guides tmr.
:(

i accept that.
i will take it as a signal.
i will take it as a hint.
i wont be affected by that.
i am really happy for you.
cheerios*
((:

040705

2005-07-04T21:04:00.000+08:00

hohoho.
i love youth day. (:
cos we dont have to go to school.
went to town with ade today.
my xiao hei one.
anne frank. (:
met up with her at bishan.
and realise both of us wore green.
then we headed to town.
went to robinsons sale.
we bought two sb each.
i love snapping !
didnt bring my cam so had to use phone.
but luckily ade did.
its her unlucky day.
she dropped the sweet on the floor.
when the shop is super quiet.
and the man had to pick it up.
then she spilled her coke at kfc.
the entire cup.
all the ice.
and the nice man had to clean it up.
and gave her a new cup.

eug joined us later.
went to try clothes and take picts.
eug has the unwilling look on her face.
HAHAS.
and blah blah.
saw this wallet that both ade and me love alot.
ohya. we took neos !
hahas. yep.
went to ps later on.
and city link.
i didnt buy the wallet. :(
due to some limits.
i really like it.
sigh.

i have not completed my hmwk.
until amanda called me in the bus and reminded me.
shesh.

you wanna know why i'm like that.
i tell you.
you made me this way.
(:

010605

2005-07-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

well. these days are kinda boring.
except for friday.
i fav day is friday !
cos there's guides.
i realise i actually love guides.
(:
i love guides course of the people in it.
but so sad.
sec fours are gonna leave. :(
then i dont know if ill still like it.
well.

today. we had some weird programmes.
kinda fun la.
patrol things.
ohya.
then was the manito game !
you know the angel and mortal game ?
guess who's my mortal ? !
hahas. im so happy.
with the help of my dear rach.
(:
she's my fav senior. (:
haha. i hope she is my angel too.
kinda impossible.
smiles. ((:
guess she wont know.
and wont come here.
i wonder who is my angel.
haha.

today's there pe.
wonder if i can survive napfa.
i cant do sit ups.
and standing borad jump.
sighs.

amanda cant use her com. ;(

280605

2005-06-28T18:43:00.000+08:00

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind)
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty

I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy
I never wanted to live a lie

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty

Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth yes it did. (:
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty

What am I supposed to do
Then I'm guilty
All I wanna do is speak my mind
Gulity
Then I'm guilty
I'm prepared to testify
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
I'm Guilty

ohhmyy !
i feel like the happiest person is the whole world.
it has been very long since i felt this way.
i wanna cry. :'(
im so happy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really wanna cry :'(
now i understand why ppl feel like crying when they are happy.
ohhmyy ohhmyy.
i still like you.
ohhmyy !!!!!!
god, pls pls dont take this feeling way.
pls.
never.
plsplspls.
ahhhhh !
thankyou thankyou.
thanks to you.
thanks to god.
pats my back*
(:
yes. its you.
smiles*

haha.
i so love today.
28june.
ill rmb this day.
and ytd too.
thanks to every single one that made my day.
everyone.
im so happy cos of everyone too !!!
cos my ipw mates.
cos of charis.
cos of kaiyin.
cos of denise.
cos of rachel.
cos of mummy.
cos of the cute kids.
cos of pam.
cos of myself. (:
cos of every every single one.

god pls never take this feeling away manns.
i wanna shout from the mountain top.
not cedar guides.
but to say.
*im soo happy.
wo hen xing fu.
thats lame.
but ahhhh !!!!!!!!!!!
i cant contain it.
manns.
im bursting.

smiles smiles smiles.
i love everyone.
dont anyone dare to take my smile away.
i wanna show my dimples !
nahh. kidding.

went back to the childcare.
some of them forgot us.
but nvm.
the rmb later.
carry them up high.
training my arm muscles.
like i have.
haha.

you are making me,
like you no more.
sigh.
nope. no sigh.
i know thats broken el.
haha.

ohhhhhhhh.
i wanna dance.
for the first time.
whoolala.

hahaah.

260605

2005-06-26T12:38:00.000+08:00

You laid aside Your majesty, gave up everything for me.
suffered at the hands of those You had created.
You took away my guilt and shame,
when You died and rose again.
now today You reign,
and heaven and earth exalt You.
You have won my heart and i am Yours.
forever and ever, I will love You.
You are the only one who died for me,
gave Your life to set me free.
so I lift my voice to You in ador - a - tion.

thats the song that ive been talking aobut.
i found it with the help of charis.
thanks. (:

it hurts no more. (:
cheerios.

240605

2005-06-24T11:50:00.000+08:00

they drew this for me.
(:

180605

2005-06-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

yes. i know its impossible.
dont worry i know whad to do.
cheerios !
((:

ohh. i have lots to talk about.
haha.
firstly. msn is finally wokking.
i have that brand new feeling.
need sometime to get use to the *new msn.
im outdated i know.
so i may forget who you are.
eveything in my com is gone.
cos its reformatted.
dont know how to spell.
or whadever you say it.
all the picts and stuff that ive been keeping.
gone !
hearbreaks.
well.
so there's room for new ones !
(:

feeling high.
ohh. went swimming just now.
den i realise i forgot to bring my goggles.
i was practically swimming it the dark.
closing eyes and swim.
but slowly. i opened.
i mastered the art of swimming without goggles !
whoots !
but my eyes were all red after that.
when i went to 7eleven to buy stuff.
i was like crying to her.
tears just came out.
my vision is so blur now.

its about choices.
sometimes we often make the wrong choices.
i may regret with whad i chose.
sighs.
there will be consequences for it.
but i will be responsible.
sorry.

shall dedicate to you mummy some other day.

i dont want to hurt anyone.
ya ...

110605

2005-06-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

enough.

110605

2005-06-11T15:21:00.000+08:00

so bored.
no msn. ;(
no ade.
no xiao hei one.
no one to listen to my complaints.
no one to cheer me up.

no mummy.
no argues.
no talks.
no play.
no ten cent horse.
i miss mummy.

ohya.
that charis came back from that stupid camp already ya?
haha.
thanks.
tell me bout that when i see you okay ?
(:

Stucked
i don't know.
i really don't know.
im sorry.
call me dumb.

090605

2005-06-09T20:45:00.000+08:00

this post is removed.

080605

2005-06-08T23:45:00.000+08:00

i can tell you many reasons why i hate someone or something.
but i cant tell you the reasons,
why i love someone.

thanks alot ade. (:
in my darkest nights,
you are my brightest star. x)
loved. <3

080605

2005-06-08T13:23:00.000+08:00

wherever you go
whadever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whadever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you.
bud i know its impossible.
byebye you.
forever and ever.

i'll be right here waiting for you

ocean's apart day after day
and i slowly go insane
i hear your voice on the line
but it doesn't stop the pain

if i see you next to never
how can we say forever

wherever you go
whadever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whadever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

i took for granted, all the times
that i thought would last somehow

i hear the laughter, i taste the tears
but i can't get near you now

oh, can't you see it baby
you've got me going crazy

Repeat chorus

i wonder how we can survive
this romance
but in the end if i'm with you
i'll take the chance

oh, can't you see it baby
you've got me going crazy

Repeat chorus

a very meaningful song.
right here waiting for you.
how true.
ha ...

Heartless
i'm so angry with you.
NOO.
i'm so angry with myself.

070605

2005-06-07T13:32:00.000+08:00

finally have the chance to blog.
well. ytd
went out with yanyi and amanda !
hahas. so fun.
brought my cam ...

they were late.
that amanda as usual ...
(:

went to far east.
had luch at my dearest kfc ! (:
and walk about.
yy bought a shirt.
the neoprint shop there is so cool ..

den on the way to heeren.
through wisma.
theres this mango shop.
HAHA !
we picked the clothes and to the fitting room.
yep. i know ..
but so fun !
shall do it again next time/
whiiee. (:

then was heeren.
took neos.
and the action city !
that eeyore !
tried taking pic with them.
and blah blah.

and cine.
the neoprint shop there was the best.
you know whad.
haha.
(:

really enjoyed myself ytd !
i love mummy.
i love grandma.
(:
we rawked the town.
shesh.
mummy. i dont want it to repeat.
i want it again !
lala.
i love snapping ! (:

[1]
i mean whad ive said.
but i wont force you.
if you refuse to believe me.
up to you.
(:

my stupid msn still isnt working !
im so outdated already.
eck.
i hate it la.

~eromyna gub tonw i [2]

040605

2005-06-04T13:11:00.000+08:00

fine.

020505

2005-06-02T17:10:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA !
im feeling high now !
cos of the song that ade is playing to me.
do something.
im on drugs.
lalalala. ((:
and cos of charis toh's dedication !
hahahaahaha.
going mad.
shakes head*

Do ya feel this?
I'm gonna feel this...

Are you ready?
I don't think so...

Somebody give me my truck
So we can ride on the clouds
So we can turn up the base like...

Somebody pass my guitar
So we can look like a star
And spend this cash like...

What ya gonna do when the crowd goes "eohh"?
Why y'all standin' on the wall?
Music's starting everywhere
So why don't you just move along?

I see ya lookin' at me
Like I'm some kinda freak
Get up outta ya seat
Why Don't ya do somethin' ?

I see ya lookin' at me
Like I got what ya need
Get up outta ya seat
Why Don't ya do somethin' ?

Now ya all in my grill
Cus I say what I feel
Only rock to what's real, now (bump, bump)
But I can't do that with you
Already here with my crew
You can roll if you can't
Dont be a (punk, punk)

What ya gonna do when the crowd goes "eohh"?
Why y'all standin' on the wall?
Music's starting everywhere
So why don't you just move along?

I see ya lookin' at me
Like I'm some kinda freak
Get up outta ya seat
Why Don't ya do somethin' ?

I see ya lookin' at me
Like I got what ya need
Get up outta ya seat
Why Don't ya do somethin' ?

I see ya lookin' at me
Like I'm some kinda freak
Get up outta ya seat
Why Don't ya do somethin' ?

*mwah*

I see ya lookin' over here
Can't ya tell I'm havin' fun?
If you know like I know
You would stop starin' at us
And get your own space
And do somethin'

I see ya lookin' at me
Like I'm some kinda freak
Get up outta ya seat
Why Don't ya do somethin' ?

I see ya lookin' at me
Like I got what ya need
Get up outta ya seat
Why Don't ya do somethin' ?

I see ya lookin' at me
Like I'm some kinda freak
Get up outta ya seat
Why Don't ya do somethin' ?

I said
Do Somethin'

Aww!

Why don't ya do somethin' ?

why dont you do something ?
haha. ((:
ade is high too.
she has given the whole afternoon to me !
my dear xiao hei one.
i am looking forward to 13june !
go patuo.
i dont know how to spell.
im getting excited !
haha.
whoohoos !
lalalala.

dedication to charis toh !
i really really love that dedication !
you rawk manns !
i love you.
*mwahhs
here a dedication.
well. ive known charis for very long.
both of us have been in the same church.
since born.
and we only discover it like in p2 or p3?
first time i saw her was at the playground.
at the 3rd level.
she was wearing a dress.
i think i was too.
those flowery type.
yep !
i still rmb that red or yellow shirt guy ?
his chant and stuff.
and both of us were like acting guai.
never expect that ill meet ya again
den you left chinese service.
same pri school for six years?
but never the same class.
i went tkgs.
den so qiao transferred to cedar.
and we are in the same class !
i was like looking around the classroom.
and i saw ya.
i was like isnt this the one from my church ?
den we did art together.
yep. we've been through a lot.
both good and bad times.
and you are the only one that have been with me from the starting to now.
tho many many things happened.
but heyy !
we survived together !
and also ppl like rachel denise kaiyin and all.
and we are like always in the same group.
the 3 13 23 33.
and ipw !
being such a great leader.
helping us do stuff.
and forgiving this secretary.
HA !

i really love that night.
the campfire night.
enjoyed talking to you too.
and ade of course.
and rachel before that.
tho ade fell asleep.
next year we shall continue ya ?
smiles (:
well. thanks for being such a great friend.
had fun with ya.
doing so biantai stuff. winks.
i love ya !
muacks !

010605

2005-06-01T11:18:00.000+08:00

whad ade said is right.
why should you care if that person doesnt care ?
hell.
don't know whether to
scream or,
shout or,
laugh or,
die. HA right. whatever whatever whatever
whad a big joke i am to you now.
i got it.
ill be happy for you all.
(((:

you shouldnt have lied to me in the first place.

300505

2005-05-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

my third post of the day.
haha.
i really have bad moodswings.
feeling so high and feeling so down.
well. haha.
try not to think bout all those sad stuff anymore.
suddenly. i just feel like coming to my blog and crap.
im weird i know.

holidays is so boring.
i wanna go back to school.
to play speed !
haha. im really addicted to it.
just realise that i actually love going to school.
looking forward to fri.
having a rnr meeting.
im weird.
i dont know why i look forward to it actually.
ohh. can go biantai with sylvia !
HAHA !
sat have to go back for selection for ndp.
ohhhh.
so scary.
just have to pray hard that i wouldnt laugh.
cos its really so scary.
that you cant control it.
and im not kidding.

well. was feeling really down just now.
i needed some sad and slow music.
and ill start crying.
haha. dumb.
thanks a lot sylvia.
for always being there.
ya always the one i go to when i have probs.
thanks for the listening ear.
nope. like whad you said.
listening eyes.
haha.
greatly appreciated too.
those who've passed my life ,
helped me through times of despair ,
i've not forgotten who you are.
(:

she sent me this real meaningful msg.
so cute !

in time of difficulties,
dont ever say.
"God, i have a big problem",
but instead,
"hey problem,
i have a big GOD"
and everything will be ok.
"GOD BLESS U !!"

so cute ya ?
haha !
this kinda msgs mean much more than those assurances kind.
cos they may not be true.
ive fallen for those before.
hmmm ...

yeshyesh.
something good is going to happen to me this week !
hahas. that whad the pastor said.
well. ((:

ohya !
im reading this book currently.
called the purpose of driven life
its so cool !
charis read it too.
while reading.
i realise theres so much i have not done.
so much room for improvement.
so much faith i need to build.
its a 4o days book.
trying to read at least one per day.
read this.
No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
and God wept that it hurt you so;
but it was allowed to shape your heart
so that into his likeness you'd grow.

haha. shall talk more bout it next time.

[2]
all i need is time.
and ill heal.
i must.

300505

2005-05-30T18:33:00.000+08:00

dedicated to mummy !
you are finally fianlly back.
im so bored at home.
missed you calling me.
and the times you called but i couldnt talk.
hahas.
you only called me when you reach home !
bad bad.
i know you are saving sms again !
haha. so kiam siak.
whadever you spell it.
haha.

pls go to your blog and update it.
this june hols is gonna be so boring.
call me when you are free okay ?
i miss you.
i miss you.
shall add you another testi later on.
lalala.
cya.
*mwahhs.

300505

2005-05-30T12:59:00.000+08:00

[2]
so damn irritating.
do some things.
and got deleted.
this isnt the first time.
so fishy.
fine fine.
its okay.
i got it.
(:
again. its so cruel.

never ever expect you to be like that.
i dont believe.
well. ive seen the other side of you.

290505

2005-05-29T20:12:00.000+08:00

was wondering if whad ive done and said was too mean.
well.
for that,
i apologise.

280505

2005-05-28T17:04:00.000+08:00

just got back from the camp.
tired.

lets talk bout the whole campfire.

haha. feeling high !
went back home with pam.
den to school.
started preparing.
im in backdrop. =x
hide under the table and tie knots.
so suan.
shift tables etc.
den helped out at rnr.
cool !

had a great chat with rachel and charis !
and ade too.
rachel left.
missed you so much last night.

the dance was great.
cool.
im happy cos its over.
was really high at that time.
but kinda scared.
sectwos unite ! (:
and went to change.
took off my spects and change.
and some stupid ppl stepped on it.
i dont know who ...
i feel like ahh smacking you manns.
made me blind for half the camp.
den it was so crooked.
and uncomfortable for my eyes.
couldnt enjoy the campfire.
and i was like blind.
cos i cant see without my spects.
rachel was like singing three blind mice.
rachel sylvia and me.
so cute !

was super kiasu.
we were the first to go to the toliet.
and felt so clean.
after sweating for the whole day.
went to sleep.
but we didnt.
ade charis and me were talking.
den ppl were like shhh.
missed rachel.
but ade fell asleep.
den we slept bout three plus ?
kinda overslept.
alarm didnt help again.

carried out duties.
blindly.
so irritating.
i feel so naked without my spects.
walking about blindly.
ppl see me.
i see them.
they know who i am.
i dont know who they are.
until i take out my crooked spects.
swept and mopped the floor.
preparing us to be housewifes.
really tiring.
realise it isnt easy to mop and sweep.
tho it seemed fun.
hurhur.
and blah blah.
didnt eat much in this camp.
so hungry.

after it ended.
we headed to macs.
fixed my specs.
and blah.
wanted to play.
but didnt in the end.

im really tired.
again.
i feel like hugging my pig and wriggle my toes.
and hide under the blanket.
and zzZZz.

[1]
its not gonna affect my life anymore.
tho i admit i was greatly affected initially.
but now.
ive healed.
i prayed.
ive done whad i could do.
more den whad i should do.
i have my limits.
whadever you wanna do.

i really dont care anymore.

but keeping those great memories.

blown off. -

my camp just ended.
and mummy's camp just started !
eck.
missya. x) hugs*
ill be so bored at home.
sighhs-

-------------------------
[2]
to you.
im really really disappointed.
again.
when i saw that the other day.
was really upset.
you wanna hurt me.
yes. you've got it. claps.
but let me tell you.
its really cruel.
...

note. one and two .. different ppl

240505

2005-05-24T16:07:00.000+08:00

hheyhey !
schools great today !
started off great.
and ended great too !
wahahaha. xD

well.
went down to welcome mummy this morning.
can you believe this ?
this the first time that we have fate.
and met each other.
well. that was because i came early !
and she is there stolling her way here.
hoho.

a kinda slack day.
went to jump and touch that exit sign.
mummy. i know you can touch it.
i cant jump for goodness sake.
well. i shall practise.
on my grandma's bed.
whad my bro and i used to do.
haha. (:

ohya. we played stress.
taught mummy.
she is just a beginner so its unfair.
plated the tag team one.
let me tell you.
it was really fun manns !
i love stress.
fate paired up with charis lim.
while mummy and i paired up tgt.
we lost like every round.
sorry fatmah for making so much noise.
but its just a game that you cant control.
mummy ! hii-five.
tho we arent good at it.
our tag team rawks yep ?
fate and charislim used cunning tactics.
cheat !
well. we won the very last round.
by cheating.
but who cares.
we rawk ! xP
;)
come on. lets play again tmr !
i look forward to school now.
haha.

stayed back in school for a while.
with ade and pam.
pam got a new phone !
im feeling excited for her. (:
saw charis on the way back.
im really not surprsied when i heard her scream.
tickled her and she screamed again.
haha. dumb. (:

took a lift out from rachel.
thanks.
was really paiseh.
but you know.
im thickskin.
dragged pam to come along.
haha.

[2]

it was a really big mistake.
but this ending is just a new beginning.
((:

[1]
i regard you as a friend.
so i did that.
but pls.
stop giving me that kinda face.
i dont owe you anything.
dont bother me.
and i wont bother you. (:

dont need you afterall.
no offence. (:

note; two and one diff ppl
i dont like ms tooot.
i dont know why.
whadever she says is just so irritating.
pardon me.
get this right.
i dont want you to praise me !
pls.
((:

mumu ! long time since you last tagged !
take care too ! x)

cat -- you didnt win.
cos i wasnt ready.
so you lost.
again !

mummy -- had a great time playing with you.
lets play again tmr !
miss ya too.
*mwahhs.

220505

2005-05-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

changed my blogskin.
cos its really very old already.
since last year.
was too lazy to change it.
well. but ive got it done now.

heyy. made it myself.
not copyrighted.
but i dont like it a lot tho.
shall try to improve on it.

210505

2005-05-21T19:03:00.000+08:00

breakdown.
i cant stand it anymore..

a dead knot.
that i cant untie.
unless i cut it off.

tell me tell me.

210505

2005-05-21T08:22:00.000+08:00

#reply to tags
yanyi -- must be mummy influence you to poke ppl.
tsktsk.

natalie -- i wont let you dig.
but ill dig yours. xD

mummy -- i didnt pao qi you.
dont make me sound so bad.
had guides whad.
but you have charis.
haha.

pei qi -- heyy !
long time nv talk to you !
miss ya too !

sylvia -- you finally tagged.
you are a pig. (:

190505

2005-05-19T18:46:00.000+08:00

x country today.
sorry mummy !
sorry sorry.
ill be there for you.
no matter whad.
hope so.
charlotte and me reached the line tgt
i stink.
but went to hug denise.
charlotte and charis also.
i bet she stinks now too.

it rained.
so we cabbed to j8.
and eat and blah.
yep !
i saw natalie !
her super deep dimple.
i wanna dig it.
i love her baby pony.
whoots (:

pioneer test was okay.
luckily it didnt rain.
so the others could do their hike and rope ladder.
if not they have to do again.
and its damn troublesome.
i took my theory of axemanship.
i was like damn scared.
and mr mail is like talk to this person.
den the other.
making me so confused.
when it finally finished.
he said. #name.
i was blurred.
so i said hack saw.
hahas. den i realise he was asking for my name.

den we went to j8.
saw eug friends.
her friend said i look damn scary.
deborah. i am not !
i was just super bored and tired.
thinking of whad to do.
we sat there and stared at them.
haha. smiles (:
met up with sylvia and jiani again.
went ntuc to buy food.
and headed towards bishan park playground.
den to the bikes there.
wanted to rent.
but it started raining !
again !
we waited.
den when we decided to go home.
it rained so heavily. flooding.
there were six of us.
but only two umbrellas.
i bring umbrella everyday except for today.
took out my stinky pe shirt to cover.
but in the end.
it got all wet.
den when i squeeze. theres a lot of water.
our shirts were so transparent.
charis one was the best.
my shoes all soaked with water.
my fav socks !
cabbed home with eug.
ppl giving me that weird look.
so wet and walking like that.
my knee is so pain.

reply to tags#
yanyi -- encouraging ? right.i saw you today !
standing there. and fateha.

dotx -- are you adeline lim ?
i was like wondering who you are.
den the word cousin gave me i clue.
and asked amanda.
haha. thanks a lot for your concern.
i was surprised.
you are so sweet my dear ! x)
i wasnt really sad bout results.
but a lil sad initially.
thanks for your concern !
saw you blah ytd.
really wanted to comfort you.
but i dont know how.
never good at comforting.
its like whad can i do besides letting you cry.
saying its okay seems kinda fake.
cos i know its obviously not.
well. adeline. you keep on trying ya?
i believe you can. xD
cos we have the same genes. yep !
laughs.
huggs* (:

natalie -- i saw you today !
i love to touch your pony.
im gonna dig your dimple one day.
pioneer test is a erm outdoor skill test ?

mummy -- hope you and your you know who are okay now ya ?
(:

180505

2005-05-18T18:39:00.000+08:00

a very tiring day.
my whole day is affected.
it kept appearing in my mind.
the whole situation.
and blah.
come on yuanting.
i look forward to the day when ill say.
its a happy day !
hahas.

haiya.
in another dilemma.
my heart tells me that i want.
but my mind tells me i cant.
ppl always say follow your heart.
i want too.
but i just cant.
why does my smashed and brokened heart still want ..
when i was rejected directly in the face.
sort of.
well. come on yuanting.
that book that i read that day.

real encouraging.
think back the itmes when god guided you through difficult times.
cant he do the same for you again ?
hrmmps.
i do believe ; help me overcome my unbelief.
does this sound familiar ?

just hung up the phone with mummy !
the song is stuck in my head !
hahas.

got back exam papers.
finally.
sth that i have to face.
maths was ermm okay.
keep on trying manns.
science. gosh.
the subject that i dislike most since pri sch.
failed initially.
was feeling really down.
thanks ade !
for comforting me.
and helping me to find that half mark.
you know. it really helped a lot !
huggs !
was like chanting.
god i desperately wanna pass science.
den i realised there was some kinda errors.
ms thang added me some marks !
and yayys !
trying to think on the brighter side.
(:
if wanna know whad i got.
whads the passing mark.
thats the ans.
hahas.
but my mum.
was like you didnt do well.
comparing with her again !
you dont even understand la.
i dont wanna be praised.
but i dont want you to make me feel so lousy !
stop asking me to go into stream that i dont like.
haiyaya.

tmr is x country.
so tired.
and have to go bishan for that stupid pioneer test again.
tsk.

here a dedication to mummy !
who just called me asking why i didnt tag
haha.
well.
dont worry bout the monkeys.
baby to the rescue !
ill push you.
haha. i love my mummy loads.
bigg huggs !
kisses !
cant pao qi your baby.
thats our promise.
hoho.
but you are so bad.
bully both baby and mother.
hahas. okay.
shall go and add you another testi.
(:

170505

2005-05-17T19:45:00.000+08:00

sighhs.
i really have severe moodswings.
sometimes feel so high.
that i feel like jumping.
but sometimes feel so down.
that ill just stone.
and want some peace.
well. im weird.

sorry mummy.
for showing you black face on the way out.

the audition for buzz at canteen is tmr.
hrmmps.
all the best manns.
ha.

had two photo taking today.
kinda fun la.

tmr gonna get back exam papers.
whoaa.
but id rather quickly get over it.
hate dragging things.

read the our daily journey book ytd.
i found one part really meaningful.
found that book on the table.
tho is very outdated.
its aug 2003.
haha. but ya.

the last story.
sth like that.
each life is a test.
but every test ought to come with an answer key.
for every troubling question of life throws at us,
there must be a specific passage of Scripture with a concrete ans/
bible is a remarkable in whad it doesnt tell us/
yep. sometime we couldnt understnad why god didnt make all things absolutely clear to us.
why did we stuggle with sin ?
why are there so many hurts ?
when would be arrive as spiritual giants with all the ans ?

building faith is a lot like building muscles.
if we never exercise our faith,
it will shrink into uselessness.
the greater the test,
the stronger our faith will be.
even when we think w've failed.

god puts us in situation where we've never been.
so that we have to depend on him.
he gives us challenges we know we cant handle on our own.
he poses ans well beyond our ability to answer.

if i didnt have any faith to doubt.
i wouldnt doubt my faith.

i love that phrase.

160505

2005-05-16T17:50:00.000+08:00

feel like blogging.
tho im not in the mood of blogging.

today is another unhappy day.
so suay again la.
ms toot is so ...
i dont mean to lie.
haiya.
i dont want you to praise me.
i dont want you to pity me either.
i dislike teacher who looks down on the weaker ones.
or categorise us as the weak ones.
if you do.
ill certainly prove you wrong.
yep. i will.

having a sec4 farewell party coming up.
the leaders are weird.
haha. whad can i say.
joined rnr.
with sylvia ! hii !
and jiani is the leader.
haha. but charis didnt get in !
eck.

you never know that you cheered me up a lil'.
haha. (:

my sis just called me.
when she is just in another room.
haha.

im praying for you.
you dunno how i refuse to believe whad she said bout you.
cos i know you arent like that.
and i just dont wanna believe her.
yet this is whad i get.
all that stupid misunderstandings.
clear them away manns.
come on. try. treasure.
you know im talking bout you girl.
(:

lord i need you to be with me this time.
to walk through this dark path of road.
let me trust and believe in you more.

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way He will make a way
By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His word will still remain
He will do something new today

http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Acropolis/3819/god_will_make_a_way.mid

110505

2005-05-11T17:41:00.000+08:00

happy bday to you kaiyin !
ill get you a belated present.
sorry.

well. todays one of my unhappy day.
so unlucky la.
that mr tay.
caught me for my socks.
whads his bloody prob.
always trying pick on ppl.
den he caught kaiyin.
saying that she gave him face.
i cant stand him !
can you like get a life ?
and not go arnd catching ppl.
you should know that specs incident.
my mum came all the way to school to speak to ms leong.
just because of you.
haiya. nvm.
chill.

history pageant was kinda fun.
changing here and there.
but we didnt have enough time.
a lil messy.
when i wore rachelt's pants.
i couldnt zip it.
den when i went in.
it was kinda over.
hahah.

so bored in school la.
i wanna play.
captains ball !
went over to mummy's place to talk.
dragged her to walk walk with me.
so boring.

had singing and blah.

haha.
** really let me down.
making me disappointed everyday.
perhaps ive made ** this way too.
was all that done deliberately ?
twelve midnight will be my deadline.
am i being a fool ?

100505

2005-05-10T19:37:00.000+08:00

finally.
exams are over !!
whoohoos !
but i dont actually have that feeling.
compared to last year.
cos last year we went swimming after that.
and i was so excited.
that i wore goggles to study.
kinda stupid.

both papers are okay.
luckily maths wasnt as difficult as the 2004 one.
science will be okay if you study.
haha. hurried through the paper.
thought i didnt have enough time.

after exams we headed to town !
actually to ps to watch movie.
actually we decided to sneak inside to watch house of wax.
unfortunately. when kaiyin and i went to buy the tickets.
we couldnt get through.
we tried to pretend to be like 16.
kinda stupid tho.
our tag team acting rocks !

so we watched coach carter.
hope i got the right spelling this time.
mrs ng kept talking bout it.
well. its nice !
and easy to understand this time.
haha. watching them play bball.
makes me feel so like playing captains ball !
really really feel like playing captains ball.
but the opposing team musnt be charlotter isadora they all.
but ppl like szehong !
haha. no offence.
(:

so we decided to go to denise place to play someday.
well. i am so excited !
i feel like singing.
my dearest boomboomboomboom !
kaiyin is addicted to this song now.
haha. ya.
i know my singing is horrible.

ohya. we took neoprints.
hrmmps.
shant talk too much bout that.
walk around and went home.
tho i wanted to stay longer.
i dont minded staying to midnight.
haha. if there's someone to accompany me.
and walk about.
perhaps to the beach !

tmr is eleven may.
kaiyin's bday.
haha. sorry cos ill get you a belated present.
but ill make you a card.
i seldom make cards one okay.
so you have to love it.
ohya.
and happy eleven may to you dumbdumb.
if you still rmb it.
haha.
huggs !

we also went to action city.
so many algaes !
so damn cute !
i saw an eeyore that is super big.
its a the top.
so damn damn damn cute !
i feel like cuddling it.
but guess whad.
its 189 bucks !
no one will waste their money to buy that.
kaiyin said if she gets me one.
she wouldnt buy bday present for me for three years.
haha.

but there was a smaller eeyore !
damn cute too.
but minitoons one cuter !
kaiyin and i decided to buy for each other for our anniversary.
eeyore and piglet.
haha.
i started liking eeyore when i saw yy's one.
but she lost it.
its so cute.
with the lil' candy at the ear.
and a sweet at the tail.
omg !
haha. im so childish.
well. ..

lets reply to links.
amanda !
i cant navigate that kind of blog !
go change it.
it always says that error when i want to click it.
it always happen to those kinda blog.
so i cant tag.

mu ! i realise you arent that dao afterall.
haha !
(:

sining. i want the link.
thanks.

whad amanda told me that day is kinda like.
exactly how you will feel.

i dont like you.
but i love you.

i dont want you.
but i need you.

yep.

kisses !

060505

2005-05-06T17:36:00.000+08:00

well. i shouldnt be here.
cos exams are just a few days time.
and its the crucial subjects.
i can feel the stress creatures in my brain.
laughing evil-ly now.
together with my headache.
science and maths lessons are so eck.
science is so complicated.
if i did not read the tbk beforehand.
i would not understood whad she meant.
giving me a great headache.
ya. great.
i have not finished my revision.
time management.
and i get distracted so easily.
even by insects !
haha. argh.
persevere.
just a few more days.
i can see the light.
(:

thinking on the brighter side.
history test is over !
another burden off my shoulder.
but i didnt have enough time.
okay nvm.
friday is my official break day.
whad i feel like doing now is.
oning the aircorn.
and hide inside my blanket.
smelling my baby pillow.
cuddling my dearest pinko and bibi.
and go into my lalaland.
i need some rest.
yep. gonna sleep after this.

todays kinda good !
feeling high.
yepyep !
i love to play ten cent horse.
tho ppl may think that we are childish.
haha.

boomboomboomboom.
i am et from outer space.
boomboomboomboom.
come to singapore to buy toothpaste.
boomboomboomboom.
when i look into your grandma face.
boomboomboomboom.
it reminds me of a monkey face.
heyheyy.
monkey face.
tell your grandma to buy my tootpaste.

haha. this song just keep coming into my mind.
influenced by my sis.
now i keep on singing it to mummy !
shall dedicate a para to you some other day.
lazy. and be punctual tmr !
rarhhs.

ive waited so long.
like a lil dog. but nothing happened.
but i managed to have a open mind. sort of.
and got over **. kinda.
the past is still the past.
once it breaks. it never joins back.
its true how split milk cant be clean.
i'd rather ** tell me that ** done all that deliberately.
the broken promises.
the broken assurance.
well. seeing that ** happy.
im willing to step back.

the irrevrsible change.

040505

2005-05-04T17:08:00.000+08:00

don't you ever wish you were someone else,
you were meant to be the way you are exactly.
don't you ever say you dont like the way you are.
when you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
and I hope you always stay the same,
cause there¹s nothig bout you I would change.

i think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
dont be afraid if you've got something to say,
just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

believe in yourself.
reach down inside.
the love you find will set you free.
believe in yourself, you will come alive.
have faith in what you do.
you'll make it through.

a meaningful song.

030505

2005-05-03T17:53:00.000+08:00

okay.
my com is like so lag now.
so damn irritating.
its really damn lag.
right clicking when i did not.
i should be studying my dear science.
effects of blah chapt 14 now.
but i am here blogging.
self discipline come on.
haha.

had homec for the first period.
i did not do the individual thing.
cos i spent my time doing and rushing through the group thing.
how dumb am i.
not trying to blame anyone.
okay okay.
at least i got it done by 1105.
thanks a lot kaiyin.
for accompanying me.
running like mad women here and there.
thanks darling !
hope your tooth doesnt ache anymore !
luckily my dear mt tcher didnt come.
like again.
and she isnt pregnant.
whads wrong with her manns.

ms chia is forever nagging la.
haha.
and that ms lavina i just so idiot.
tho she didnt do anything to me directly.
but i just cant stand her.
being so fake. when the vp came.
and blaming us for everything.
well. whad the hell manns.

stayed back for hist and blah.
my dear koko crunch drink.
whoolala.
kicked the stones out.
fun !
with szemin kaiyin charis.

mummy !
dont be so stressed up.
i sent you the info for the group thing already
hope it helps a lil'.
and i wanna play my ten cents horse tmr !
it helps to train your leg muscles.

i prayed for open-minded-ness.

290405

2005-04-29T18:31:00.000+08:00

A whole life circle.

a thousand thoughts fill my mind.
screw myself for causing the whirl I've put myself in.
such self-inflicted shit.
i can't understand why I'm back where I was .

everything just happens in a cycle.
rain falls, evaporates, and then new clouds appear,
and it starts raining all over again.
and this time, there's no doubt,
a new umbrella would shelter me.
countless showers and thunderstorms come and gone,
the old umbrella, tried and broke.

ive seen too much for my day this long.
things which i refuse to accept.
ive never expected it to be this way.
you.
im still me.
but ..
it wont make a difference to anyway.
haha.

just take a look, and realise,
and wonder,
how and where can i ever find one,
as perfect as thee?
ill lie down.

mummy. its okay.
next year la.
dont be sad anymore.
im always here for you.
huggs*
x)

290405

2005-04-29T17:46:00.000+08:00

ha ha.
im just os luckyyyy nowadays la.
last week i lost my handphone.
and guess whad?
today. i lost my ez link.
my mum is gonna kill me la.
for always being so careless.
together with my dad.
really pray that its somewhere safe.
hopefully. some kind soul picked it up and find some way to return me.
i hope i hope.
and ill love that person manns.
hahas. really dont know whad to do la.
so irritating.
why do i always lose my things ?
boarded the bus.
took out my holder.
and my card isnt there.
maybe i dropped it somewhere.
haiya haiya haiya.
hope kind souls do exist.
ya. haha.

called the mrt thing.
she is so efficient.
called me.
but unfortunately. it wasnt found.
she called me ms lim.
sounds so weird.
thanks a lot charis btw !
she always the one helping me when i lose things.

270405

2005-04-27T17:31:00.000+08:00

ive got joy.. joy..
ive got some joy in my heart.
ive got peace ..
ive got some peace in my heart.

lalala. this lively song just suddenly came into my mind.
but i just cant rmb the tittle.

feeling so high today !
haha !
madness is getting into me.
teehees.

had homec.
did groupwork.
haha. that rachel pulled out my mouse.
i was like wondering why it cant move.
but smart me fixed it back !
shesh.
and she was pressing the wire.
and asked me to scroll down.
haha.

den was chinese.
tcher came.
charis and me were talking behind.
guess kaiyin is kinda annoyed.
haha.

thinky winky.. depsi.. lala. paul aul !
teletubies. teletubies.
say hello !
ehow !
heheehhe.

sounds kinda retarded but cute !
i dont know how to spell all that.

im type b for that test.
haha. weird.
the tests are weird too.
everything is weird.
including mee !
hoho.

missed abit of singing session.
and blah blah.
haha.
the sec ones are so demanding !

haha. god is kinda fair.
well .. he is.
haha. ive lost one. but gained the other.
but i want it* back too !
greed.
he was the only one who understands.
who knows that in my heart. im crying badly.
the comforted me.
thankyou.
lie down. and he will give you rest.

we must try to be patient and to listen to His will. when we leave everything in God's hands, we know that each rejection is just another arrow pointing us to where He wants us.

found this from somewhere.
find it kinda meaningful.

"I will never leave you nor forsake you."

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2005-04-25T16:30:00.000+08:00

tag ppl !

haha. decided to add a new tagboard.
cos mummy has been asking me to do so.
by tmr.
and ppl like lichu etc.
hahas.
those ppl who wants to talk unpleasant stuff.
are not welcomed.
it isnt difficult to get out of here.
just trying out back with the tagboard.
if it gets quiet.
haha. den shall remove it.
hoho. kinda excited.

heyy yanyi !
thanks for your concern dear !
and that sweet testimonial.
it cheered me up a lil.
((:

hahas. shoo all the unhappiness.
shoo all the pessimism.
correct spelling ?
but just shoo.
hope things will be alright.
yeahhs.

music was boring.
im just no interested in music.
maths was boring.
lit also.
that stupid tcher.
all the boring stuff today.
my dear mt tcher not here again !
lalala.
went with kaiyin to hg mall.
to buy sweets and stuff.
yumyum. gummies.
xD

no more tears.
no more crying.
just one last time.
im a big big girl !

if no one wants me.
i want myself.
if no one loves me.
i love myself.
x))

sounds kinda kiddy.
but yep !
ill be happy and cheerful.

the renewed me.

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2005-04-24T11:53:00.000+08:00

Solitude
Laugh, and the world laughs with you;
Weep, and you weep alone.
For the sad old earth must borrow it's mirth,
But has trouble enough of it's own.
Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air.
The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.

Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go.
They want full measure of all your pleasure,
But they do not need your woe.
Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all.
There are none to decline your nectared wine,
But alone you must drink life's gall.

Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by.
Succeed and give, and it helps you live,
But no man can help you die.
There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a long and lordly train,
But one by one we must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.

depression.
life is always like that.
everyone is so happy.
while im feeling sad here.
left alone.
no one understands.
on the verge of breaking down.
the wrold has turned upside down.

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2005-04-22T21:27:00.000+08:00

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2005-04-21T19:48:00.000+08:00

feeling tired.
yet excited.
bout i dont know whad.
haha.
my eyes are so tired.

today is my suay day.
hahas. a long story.

got back the yue du resutls.
like finally !
hahas.

and maths.
glad that i passed.
haha.

mdm f. taught us the use of compass etc.
for tmr's pioneer test.
im scared.
but excited at the same time !
whoots !
think its gonna be fun.
yeahhs.
i just love that laddle thing.
thats so cool la.
and the kettle things too.
but im gonna be dishonest.
=|

took a lift out from denise.
den when i left her car to the bus stop as usual.
i realise my dearest hp is missing.
my hp is so impt to me.
feeling so scared.
its worse den losing your wallet or ez link card.
my mum will definately scold me.
and if i lose it.
she may not get me a new one.
haha. and my dearest hp strap !
i love it so much.

took a bus back.
went to the bus stop.
the place where i climbed.
being so thickskin and lending phone from others.
charis didnt pick up the phone.
isadora also.
and i could only rb their no.
cabbed back.
and blah blah.

firstly.
thanks yanying for lending me your phone.
and money.
thanks !

denise and mum that came to return me.
sorry.
i know its the second time already.

charis for your help.
thanks so much.
and your nice no that is easy to rmb.

ade who offered to lend me her hp.
loveya.

pamela too.

and of course. dear isadora for accompanying me.
huggs* !

((:

i know where im standing.
ill keep a distance.
you don't know how you do.
but , you do.
and you know it.
yeahhs.
i know where im standing.
i dont need lies.

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2005-04-20T17:42:00.000+08:00

haha.
kind okay today.

got back science paper !
whoots !
was surprised.
hahas.
i know its you god.

my dear chinese teacher didnt come today.
haha.
so we stayed in class.
wells.
most of us.
and.
ha ha.

after school had guides.
dance. sian la.
actually it wasnt that sian.
they changed the steps again !
hate to change things.
i mean things.
ya.
but its nicer.
sort of.
walked out today !
with sylvia jia ni and eugenia.
so damn tiring.
heyy !
glad that you love the pressie !
((:

ive said this before.
just a smile from you to me.
and ill be over the moon.
haha.
thats whad that made me happy these days.
((:

ive observed.
ive heard.
ive realised.
ive understood.
a lil disappointed.
telling myself that is okay.
i know there's a change.
i know i know.
trying to pretend to everything is okay to me.
but in fact ...
well.
i accept.
im prepared.
you wont mean as much as you used to.
ill try that.
i shall just leave it as that.
there's a longer chapter to go on.

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2005-04-18T21:39:00.000+08:00

heys. hahas. isadora's here. lalalaas. hMm. stupidd dumb dumb. why you sad? hahas. msged you but you didnt reply. miss you know? *hymphs* tsk. dun friend you le la. nahh. just kidding la. you MUST takkaire kkays. i repeat. MUST. one more time.. MUST. saw that? its a MUST. hees. rest well yar. and dont jaywalk!! buahahas. okay. im sot le. hahas. k lar. needa go. loveyou. *hUgS* ((:

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2005-04-18T15:59:00.000+08:00

heyy ppl !
im weird.
feeling sad cos of someone.
but feeling happy cos of someone.
rarhhs.
think the happiness outweighs the sadness.
thats great !
for whadever that has happened.
ive got nothing to say.
i dont blame you.
and i cant.
well. let nature take its course.
cheerios. ((:
hrmmms.
you will never know that its you who made me happy.
resolute to the belief of prayers.

its mum and kor bday today !
and sylvia's bday ytd !
i just realise that ive been spelling your name wrongly.
till today.
eugenia told me.
happy bday to you baobei.
((:
ilu*

ms chia is having pms.
im quite sure to say that.

tried to burn charis hair during science.
fun fun.

maths test was terrible.
ive tried already.
ya.
its okay yuanting.

went to search for sylvia bday present.
and we found it !
hope you will like it girl.
xD

the hills are alive. with the sound of music.
i just hope that things will turn out fine.

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2005-04-16T11:11:00.000+08:00

cant use blogger ytd.

ms chia didnt come.
yayys !
that maths test.
was so careless.
will work hard for the common test.

ms lavina suddenly seems so nice and good when they came.
she's so good at pretending manns.
the next lesson when they're gone.
she will be back to normal.
haha.

after school had the pioneer thnig.
went macs.
the lil girl is so cute.
at first i thought whad charis was doing.
stroking her head.
when i wanted to take away her balloon.
she didnt want to give me ! alert. xD

the rope thing was fun.
went up and down.

the chopping one is boring.
cant do it.
anger cut her hand.
it seems scary.
hope it better now ya ?
be brave. ;)

its damn irritating.
stop being so two sided.
rmb-ing whad happened in the past.
one needs to be grateful.

thanks slyvia girl.
im so touched la.
you were the only one that understands.
that listened to me patiently.
i needed that most. thank you. x)
whadever shared is only between us.
i promise i wont tell others whad you told me.
i hope you will do the same.
haha.
dont understand why i have such a strange stong trust in you.
that ive never felt before.
thanks a lot girl.
i treasure that.
i love you i love you.
hugs ya tightly* x)))

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2005-04-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

busy lately.
with tests etc.

hrmmms.
ohyaas. cut hair on monday.
looking so toot now.
and some stupid ppl keep calling me mo gu.
you look like meili.
ha.

the past days was okay.
not too good in fact.

had homec today.
so fun.
switch with jasmine.
this time.
adeline and me decided not to put too much salt.
cause of our past experiences.
its tasted okay.
hahas.

mt tcher didnt come again.
think she's pregnant.
haha. kpo.

ce is boring.
seeing her just makes me feel bored.
and brings me to my lalaland.

science test was rather difficult.
aiming for just a pass.
ya ?
chinese was difficult too.
the choices were so close.
dont want to fail again.
if not my dear mum.
will start blahblah.

congrats to the relay team which came in second !

had dance. so boring.
eug mum sent me home again.
ahaha.
thanks a lot girl !

who do you think you are manns.
being so aha aha.
its damn irritating you know ?
one more time.
all the xyz words will come out from me.

i am like a stranger to you.
when will the day ive been praying come ?
perhaps never.

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2005-04-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

was too lazy to blog recently.

wed. 060405
stayed back in school.
thought there is guides.
but dont know why.
we sort of did not have dance practice.
while waiting.
we cleared the classroom.
hahas. had a fun time tho.
charis swept the floor.
pam cleaned the board.
rachel and i cleaned every table.
cleaned the comp tables.
the cloth was bloody dirty.
the entire cloth turned black.
sprayed the thing.
so fun spraying !

and that man.
asked me to change my spects.
when ive been wearing it since the beginning of last year.
and isnt attracting unnecessary attention.
or distracting the tcher or whadsoever.
i explained to him.
and he.
insisted me changing it.
giving me that kinda irritating face.
and said.
i want it to be changed by this week.
is it clear ?
still talk till so fierce.
but i wont let him scare me.
he's so fucken sickening.

once i got home.
called my mum and told her bout this.
she is so efficient !
immediately called the school.
den brought me to school at night.
to talk to ms leong.
my mum is so good.
hahas. well. im not gonna change it.
=Pp

thurs. 070405
sitting at my place there is so boring.
feeling so sleepy there.
fate dont talk much.
im so bored.
but a good place to concentrate tho.
hope can change place again soon.
i bwtter not sit there.
if not ...
rarhs.
but fate is nice !

friday. 080405

deepthi moved behind.
so sad.
my only close friend there is gone.
im so suay la.
sitting in front in bad enough.
others are so lucky la.
well. okay. i accept my fate.
if you were me.
you will think the same way as i do.
if not . you are abnormal.
haha. kidding.
shall try to know others better.
hrmmms.
this sounds so ha.
my rubbish bin is gone.
so sad.

kaiyin. its ok.
its over already.
ignore whad others said.
tho its difficult.
but you can do it for 4X100.
gogogo.
aleh aleh aleh !
((:

had the pioneer thing today !
expected it to be boring.
but its so fun tho !
better den knots.
did with charis ade.
we just rawk la.
shesh.

the fire thing was so cool !
learnt a new survival* skill.
in case im lost in the jungle one day.
it will help a lot.
dig a hole.
will great effort.
put in the twigs and lalang.
spelling ?
used a matchstick to light it up.
not a.
but many.
i love playing with fire.
so cool la.
we rawk.

den was the building shelter thing.
that was fun too.
both me and charis.
broke raincoat.
haha.
made a hole there.

i love this kinda outdoor games !
whoolala !

den went j8 with eugenia.
she accompanied me to many places.
so paiseh. thanks !
bought some things.
and home sweet home.
x)

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2005-04-05T18:19:00.000+08:00

ohyaas.
i forgot to add in sth that is really impt.
ill miss mummy so much much much ...
and duckie too.
bigghuggs to you*
and isadora of course ! x)
rasyiqah and deepthi.
but shes behind me
and charlotte !

050504

2005-04-05T18:09:00.000+08:00

lazy to blog nowadays.

haiya. today was okk.
i love homecs !
cooked curry chicken with adeline today.
fun fun !
but its just abit* too salty.

thinking of adding a tagboard in.
but lazy.
perhaps some other time.
when i change my template !

had the chinese test.
hrmmms.
i can finally throw away that book.
it wasted so much of my time.

lessons was bad.

the teacher.
i just cant stand her.
though ive read the bible ytd.
saying not to curse people or judge ppl.

im bored.
its says.
luke 6:37-38
do not judge,and you will not be judged. do not condemn, and you will be condemned. forgive and you will be forgiven.
give, and it will be given to you. a good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. for the measure you use it will be measured to you.

im bored.
but she is just so whad.
i just looked at amanda.
and she said we're talking.
stop picking on us.
since you are already changing our places.
thankkkk you.

gonna change places.
haiiya.
something that i have been not looking forward to.
heard that im suppose to sit with kaiyin !
omg !
but. but. i dont know who changed it.
ms chia should just choose all by herself.
and ill wont say anything or blame anyone.

everyone is there.
you know whad im thinking.
;)

and home sweet home.
;)

i didnt lie.
i didnt bluff.
why should i be afraid ?

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2005-04-04T17:23:00.000+08:00

. name -- yuan ting.
. piercing -- two.
. tattoos --nope.
. height -- 159 ?
. shoe size -- seven.
. hair color -- black ?
. last thing you did -- going to friendster

. do you have a crush on someone -- go ahead and guess.
. do you wish you could live somewhere else -- haha. im fine with where i am. (:
. do you think about suicide -- no.
. do you believe in online dating -- nope.
. do others find u attractive -- dont know
. do you want more piercings - yep ! one more up there. !
. do you like cleaning -- depends. but i love thingds to be clean.

. have youever cried over a girl -- in a friendship sense
. have you ever lied to someone -- yep.
. have you ever been in a fist fight -- yep. when i was young in pri school !

. what shampoo do u use -- vs. heard bout it before ?
. what are u scared of -- sharp things.

. number of times i have been in love-- ------
. number of times i have had my heart broken-- hrmm. how can i count ? are my fingers enough ?
. number of times my name appeared in the newspaper -- zero
. number of scars i have on my body -- quite a few. i wanna get rid of them ! shesh.
. number of things in my past that i regretted -- many. but ill try not to let myself regret.
. number -- zero

. chewing gum -- i like grape flavours (:
. color(s) -- purple. green. black. skyblue. red. white. pink. but im no longet that lil pink girl. haha ! and maybe orange ?
. day(s) of week -- friday ?
. least fav day -- monday !
. flower(s) -- i love red roses ! the smell is so. wahh !
. special skills -- haha. talking about special ?
. summer/winter/autumn/spring -- spring ?

. have you ever cried during a movie -- why cry bout things that may not be real ?
. have you ever been to new york -- no
. have you ever been to china -- yes.
. have you ever been to california -- no
. have you ever been to europe -- no
. have you ever been to hong kong -- no. but i want to !
. have you ever been to korea -- no
. have you ever been to austrailia -- yes
. have you ever been to apan -- yes.

. what time is it now -- 1712
. apples or bananas -- apples
. red or blue -- red.
. what are u gonna do after this -- read that chinese book !
. what was e last thing u ate -- maggie.
. what do u do when you're bored -- sleep ?
. do u want kids one day and if so, how many? -- yes. two.

. most important thing to u in a frendship -- trust and to be true.
. what kinda guys do you like -- swimmers ? ahahah. xD
. what kinda friends do you like -- kind. cheerful.
. what kinda people do you like to observe -- ppl with style.
. thing u dislike abt urself the most -- i love myself. ahaha. xP
. worst feeling in the world -- heart brokened.
. who you love -- God. family friends.
. who you miss -- hrmms. piggy. ;)
. who u like -- loads. i like ppl easily. haha.
. one thing that you don't like -- ppl being cold to me. esp those whom i like. ahaha.
. one thing that you hate -- ppl that judge me. esp when they don't know me personally or whadd. ill give you a living nightmare.

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2005-03-31T17:24:00.000+08:00

hheyheys !
hrmms.
lets see.
good mood now.
lalala.

lets talk bout ytd.
went to ange's house.
played badminton !
many many years didnt play already.
so fun !
having muscleaches now.
ade too.

and ride bicycle.
my fav !
biru pumped the tyre.
so fun !

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had geog test.
hrmms. hope ive not done too badly pls.

kaiyin realised that ive got a white hair !
love plucking ppl's white hair.
except for my mother's.
...
its my third white hair ive seen in my life.
a sign of ageing.
i dont want to have too many white hair !
im dumb. talking bout these lil' stuff.

den was debate.
at first.
i was like nothing la.
nvm and calm.
but suddenly.
ppl kept giving me pressure.
info as well.
rachel was like.
be brave for once.
valves opening and closing.
scientific term.

when was up there.
was blurred.
didnt dare to look at the audience.
i admit.
i do have bad stage frights.
voice will sound weird.
and tremble.
hand were trembling.
couldnt stop it.
they went totally out of control.
den changed hand.
but the other trembled too.
legs too.
omg.
glad that its over.

its kinda obvious who the winner will be.
but we've done our best ya !
tried to be brave for once.
laughs.
;)

den was a dance prac.
but it didnt seem like one.
bffft.
boring as usual.
took taxi home with eugenia.
was raining.

pls stop sucking up.
ill see how long i can stand that.
hahas.
yeahhs stop it.
try me if you must.
(:

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2005-03-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

suupose to be studying now.
but ive given myself a break !
haha.

kaiyin finally came back to school.
together with trudy and ms chia.
which means no eating in class.
and nagging from her.
cant stand it.
you said we do not have enough time.
but why are you stil spending time lecturing us ?
to kill time ?

lit was bad.
she said we did badly so she didnt prepare the ans.
or whaddsoever.
if we did badly.
den you should help us.
whad rubbish.

hope they dont change places manns.
if not.
ha ha ha.

so fucken irritating la.
still prefer my chinese tcher.
and mayb mrs ng ?
hope i passed the test manns.

didnt go for guides.
went to dentist.
kaiyin's choir friends are weird.
haha.
except for her of course.

my mum created a mess at the dentist.
well. i caused it.
told her that i have to come back a few days later.
to take off braces and blah blah.
cos need to ask her.
den she say take off now better.
and blah.

the lady there seemed pissed.
she knows my mum well*
every phone call.
i was hoping that it isnt my mum.
but it mostly.
yes mrs lim.
...
everyone there knew im lim yuan ting now.
hahas.
but now.
finally took out my braces.
feels weird.
haha.
can finally eat apples.
hoho.

kinda of in a good mood today.
for certain reasons.
lalalala.

250305

2005-03-25T11:36:00.001+08:00

blogging for this day.

my msn is still not working.
sickening.
miss going into msn.
and chatting with ppl.
esp jeralyn and etc !
haha.

school was bad as usual.
kaiyin isnt back yet.
hrmms.
faster come back manns.

went to denise's house to cycle.
thats the best thing of that day !
i love cycling too.

den went seng kang sec.
saw ee hwan !
hii !
hahas.
den blah blah.
home sweet home.
with eugenia.

suddenly,
i just feel like letting everything go.
well.
perhaps slowly,
and silently.

Nobody really understands me,
i admit i don't.

today is good friday !
im blog on this day.
hallelujah.

stop sucking up pls.

250305

2005-03-25T11:36:00.000+08:00

blogging for this day.

my msn is still not working.
sickening.
miss going into msn.
and chatting with ppl.
esp jeralyn and etc !
haha.

school was bad as usual.
kaiyin isnt back yet.
hrmms.
faster come back manns.

went to denise's house to cycle.
thats the best thing of that day !
i love cycling too.

den went seng kang sec.
saw ee hwan !
hii !
hahas.
den blah blah.
home sweet home.
with eugenia.

suddenly,
i just feel like letting everything go.
well.
perhaps slowly,
and silently.

today is good friday !
im blog on this day.
hallelujah.

stop sucking up pls.

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2005-03-21T18:43:00.000+08:00

its just monday.
and im here missing kaiyin already.
three more days to go.
in school with no her.
but she's coming back on fri !
whoolala.

a new term.
can feel the stress coming.
haha. geog is so boring la.
the tcher esp.
el was bad.
fatmah whadever us.
hahas.
everything is bad la.
had guides singing session.
its damn i dont know whad.
but sec noes improved a lil'
great !
but still got scolded.
for being late etc.
and that person.
keep scolding like she's who.
when she's ...
shant say directly.
but we were really late la.
haiya.
things are so bad.
dar. faster come back !
=D

190305

2005-03-20T12:45:00.000+08:00

met up with joyjoyy.
hahas.
went swimming again !
wanna get tan.
but only get slightly tanner.
slightly.

den after that went to town.
walk here walk there.
she bought the hp strap that i got.
haha.
headed to fareast.
took neoprints*
hahas.

after that intended to go to the hougang swimming complex.
we were right outside already.
at the entrance.
den she said she dont feel like swimming.
eck.
so we went to eat ice pops.
im loving it.
she said wanna play a game.
when both our buses come.
den we board tgt and go home.
but when her bus came.
she ran away !
hahas.
stupid you.

isadora so sweet.
after that went to suntec with family.
yeahhs.

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2005-03-17T19:09:00.000+08:00

babyy loves mummy !!
hahas.
(((:
woots.

feel like blogging again !
really bored.
met up with eugenia just now.
she lent me her geog tb.
thanks so much !
finally finished the ppt.
so proud of myself.
teehees.
i want to go swimming today.
but sis dont want to pei me.
;((
maybe tmr !
haha.

so much things that happened.
why am i not aware of them ?
why am i at the backseat ?
the bad times.
some things that i've observed.
no wonder ...
in fact
there's so many ppl for you.
that you can't see me.
you are lucky.
cos i have a bad memory.
cant rmb whad happened.
the siuation.
whad you did.
okk.
im a blind creature.

mummyy !
im so bored too.
msn still not working.
sighhs.
i want a daddy !
btw. call me when you are free.
so bored !

why didnt you prove to me that my thinking is worng ?

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2005-03-17T15:33:00.000+08:00

everything is happening so quickly.
that theres merely no time for reaction.
was in a pretty good mood.
but saw others posts.
dots.

you can do whadever you want.
and i won't let you affect my mood anymore.

you dont re me.
and i wont re you.

dont know whads gonna happen next time.
could forsee that sth bad gonna happen.
Some flaws I have, I've taken to let go .
And perhaps you're right, enjoy life while you can.
Its all about faith and believing in Him.

haiyaya.
shall try to go back to the happy one.

There's still so much doubt in me ,
which you can't tell .
There's so much i want to say,
which i just can't express.
Can't you tell ?

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2005-03-16T15:27:00.000+08:00

had guides as usual.
and blah blah.
hais. so sian.
was stoning while dancing.
haiya.

den went out with sis.
my legs were so damn suan.
but too bad.
my sis is weaker damn me.
haha.
mummy gave a money.
she msged my sis at eygpt.
coming back on sunday.
sis bought a wallet.
i bought a pencil case and hp strap.
she didnt allow me to have the same as her.
haha.
and blah blah.
singapore is so small.
seeing ppl everywhere.
my sis too.

saw you ytd.
was like.
is it really you ?
wonder if you still rmb me.
know that i existed.
i doubt so.
but not too sure if its really you.
it was just a sec when you walked pass.
ha ha.
it was years back.

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2005-03-15T15:10:00.000+08:00

blogging for this day.
went out with kaiyin and denise.
wanted to go gym.
but dear kaiyin forgot to bring her shorts.
luckily the auntie gave us back our $$
den went swimming !
yeahhs ! so fun.
did the three level thing.
so fun !
swimming is so cool.
can get tan.
and wont sweat.
thats why its my fav sport.
got a shade darker.
or mayb redder.
hoho.

ohyaas
that stupid slide at the baby pool.
a stupid boy was there.
and for no reason asked us to kuai dian.
den i pushed myself down.
forgot the water is very shallow.
and landed on my butt.
so damn pain.
till now also pain.
when sit down.

after that watched a seires of unfortunate events.
heyheyy !
i understand okk.
den took neo !
but charis didnt come with us.

maybe im a very shallow person
ha ha ha
dont think that far
so i wont listen to whad others say bout whad.
...
shesh.
btw. i said maybe.

denise bought a new wallet.
we chose it for her.
and blah bla.h
so damn sad.
kaiyin will be off to hawaii.
leaving me alone.
:(
i guess ill be in a foul mood.
and im forseeing myself to be in for the next week.
haiis.
=x

090305

2005-03-09T18:31:00.000+08:00

today wasnt that smooth.
a sad day to me.
hrmmms. at the beginning of the day.
got scolded by mr toh.
hmm. actually wasnt affected by that.
glad that dnt is about to be over.
looking forward to homec !

chinese. and i did the baogao.
so damn scary.
charis obviously embarrassed herself.
sotong la.

haha. szemin said i look like in bad mood.
and few other ppl.
really?
do i look dao ?
muhaina looks dao.

ce did grpwork.
dots.
mummy didnt bring her ducky.
how sadd*

singing session was kinda fun.
den was dance.
went to do the shirt thing.
denise. hope ya not pissed or whadsoever.
hahas. thot of things to scold them.
but the auntie wasnt there.
the uncle was kinda good.
den we complained.
the uncle talked to the auntie.
whom i think is her wife.
in hokkien.
mayb he thot we dont understand.
haha. i do.
shesh. kidding.
kaiyin is going hawaii soon.
:(
a disappointing day.

Its true how broken glass can't be pieced together.
how spilt milk can't be clean.

the grass gets greener.

080305

2005-03-08T17:33:00.000+08:00

im suppose to be studying lit now.
but whadd am i doing here ?
hahas. okk.
it had been a good day !
first lesson was pe.
really stupid.
partnered girija.
she's nice.
hoho.
in a pretty good mood now !
teehees.
sort of.
((:
cos of someone.
dont tell you. =Pp
not anyone special in fact.

amanda brought ducky.
and isadora brought algae.
algae loooves ducky !
haha.
maths is getting more complicated.
sighhs*
and tml.
ms toooot is coming back.
haiiya.

just a smile to me from you.
and ill be over the moon.
((:

you will nv know im talking bout you.
hahas.

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2005-03-08T17:21:00.000+08:00

040305

2005-03-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

guess this would be one of my those long winded post.
as usual.
haha.

yep. ytd went with darlingg to popular.
heartlandmall.
very long didnt go there already.
i bought highlighters etc.
and she bought hmm. things.
she said tt im fussy.
well. i admit i am.
really fussy.
influenced by my mummy.
did i say how much i love kayin ?
haha. i love her loads.
has been listening to me patiently.
whenever i wanted talk.
bout ppl or whadd.
thankks !
ah biannn.
hhaha.

i love kayin !
i love jeralyn !
i love isadora !
i love denise !
i love charis !
i love cheryl !
i love ade !
i love amanda !
i love natalie !
i love anger !
i love biru !
i love yanying !
i love jessica !!
i love lichu !
i love charlotte !
i love sze min !!
i love that chubby.
valerie !
sheesh.
i love baobei !
slyvia !
etc.

kinda in a good mood.
yeahhs. and its in random order.
sort of.

yep.
todays okk.
jogging and pe.
my right hand is really stiff.
haha.
after school had guides.
friday guides is better.
kinda fun.
and was footdrill.
found out that i actually love footdrills.
scary yet exciting.
im loving it !
haha.
luckily not in the first row.
they had to do kekenan lurus ?
no idea how to spell it.
denise was like resting.
was standing beside charis.
when forming the squad.
was like hi charis.
in a very funny tone.
as usual.
haha.
ohyaas. valerie and yunqian came and correct me.
so scary.
den i didnt dare to look at them in the eye.
but valerie is nice.
(((;

isadora. hope you are feeling better now !
hahas. ducky loves algae.
((:

jeralynlim !!
your posts seem really sad.
cheer up !
tho i have no idea whads going on.
and find me when you need me.
tho i may not be the first one you'll go to.
but we are the lims !
my winking partner.
x))

020305

2005-03-02T18:53:00.000+08:00

have been blogging very often nowadays.
cos im bored.
and tests are over !
whoohoo !
but lit test is coming.
ohyaas.
charis toh didnt come to sch today.
hope you are fine.
take care.
((:

deepthi damn blur la.
make the back classrm so messy !
her house.
and isadora too.
deepthi says i bully her.
rah.
and amanda.
my dearest* partner.
keep wanting to sabo me.
telling mrs ng tt i need help.
and think she heard.
haha.
hohohho.

have maths remedial this fri.
sian la.
whad mrs ng has said.
made me like maths a lil' more.
a lil.
hoho.
this is not like trying to show off or whadever.
hehhehhs.
will work hard.
cos i dont wanna fail and go remedial !

When the going gets tough ,
Only the tough gets going.

this quote of whadever.
sounds funny.
but kinda interesting.

had singing session.
fun acutally.
the sec ones came.
cheering so softly.
yep.
but we were like tt last time too.
and played the sitting on each others lap game.
i sort of love tt game.
haha. den squeeze in a circle.
den whoever tried pulling me out.
haha. but i reacted fast !
hoho. im alert yeahs.
nah. kidding.
wonder if denise likes tt game.
winks.

den was dance.
did nothing much.
gave slyvia a name.
called baobei !
hoho.
she's damn lively and cheerful.
i like tt.
but she's sick.
haha.
loves to say taoyan.
=Pp

haha.
it seems like i put alot of weird contents.
in my post.
yeahhs !

Disappointment have been constantly knocking on my door.
Another quiet day,
leaving me thinking through what's been happening.
I'm not gonna let you affect me.

010305

2005-03-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

heyys pamela !
happy bday to you !

got back test papers today.
failed hmt.
so disappointed.
but well. kinda expected.
cos didnt understand tt li jie wen da.
and cos of tt stupid new format.
but well !
realise tt our chinese tcher is good !
haha. didnt like her at first.
but hey. im starting to like her more.
she's very nice manns !
hoho.
den got back lit.
whoohoo.
i passed.

den was geog test.
i just put in everything i learnt into it la.
whether its right anot.
just put it in.
hmm. nvm.

amanda brought ducky today !
she was busy folding hearts.
during lessons !
bad amanda.
and her stupid watch.
so sharp.
deepthi damn blur.
just like isadora.
she's always dreaming.
isadora didnt bring algaes.
brought tt pig.
...

had dance as usual.
todays one was not as bad.
ended very quickly.
don't know why.
was stoning all the way.

its so sickening la.
choosing timings.
...

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2005-02-28T15:25:00.000+08:00

heyys isadora !
happy bday to you !
fourteen alreadt but to me.
you are still a baby.
hoho.
loveyamanns.

hmm. today is kinda of good.
yeahhs !!
lessons as usual.
el is just so damn interesting manns.
amanda. miss tooooooot.
haha.
yep. had maths test.
haiya. forgot to change the thing.
but well. nvm.
hohohoho.
in a pretty good mood now.
whoohoo.
shall blog tml.
hohhoho.

250205

2005-02-25T18:26:00.000+08:00

ahhaaas.
today is kinda fun !
sort of.
ipw and nkf stuff was boring.
hmm. but ok laas.
after tt went ps with kaiyin to watch constantine.
have to reach there before 12.40
first time going out with kaiyin alone !
haha.
i love this song.
" no matter how you toss the dice,
it's youu and me.
andd me andd youu.
so happy together
. . . "
haha. bought kfc den walk about.
den realise we are late.
rushed to the cinema.
luckily it has not started.
kinda dumb trying to hide the drinks with newspapers.
hoho.

i love to eat while watching movies.
so fun !
hmm. the movie was okk.
kaiyin said it is so nice.
to me.
kinda violent.
complicated.
and as usual.
i don't understand completely.
we stayed to watch some kinda things
after the credits all that.
kaiyin told me to.

den went to to heeren.
walk walk.
wanted to buy something.
but decided to go to wisma to see if theres other types.
kaiyin walked with me there.
tho she was n a hurry.
love ya manns !!
hoho.
went to the surf board or whad shop.
realise it isnt there !
asked tt lady.
luckily its tt we went to the wrong shop.
so went to tt shop.
and bought it.
xing tong.
nvm.
den went home.
haha.
yep. (((:

btw. took lots of postcards.
r and r ppl.
if you all still need. can come and tell me.
yep.

sometimes when you needed some company.
do you realise she's always there ?
well. treasure her.
yep.
youu know i'm talking to you.
and you know who i'm talking about.
smile.
=)

thinking of a question.
saw it somewhere before.
is popularity more impt or true friends ?
hahas.

i;ve realised it the hard way,
but the easiet way to solve a situation,
is not to frown on it and get all angry.
but take your time and find the oort of the problem.
get it right, smile.

230205

2005-02-23T18:34:00.000+08:00

today is badd.
wasnt feeling really well cos of somethings.
and had two tests.
history and hmt.
so difficult !
both of them !!
esp chinese.
so damn difficult.
prefer the old type.
yep.

stop trying to be like idunnowhadd.
i know whad you wanna do.
i know i know.
you are so different.
trying to whadever.
stop being like this.
i know whad you wanted to do just now.
its obvious you know.
okk. nvm.
get near to..
your face already told me that.
i never thought you would be like this.
sorry if this is offensive.
i am this blunt.
=)

i dont know whad laas.
wonder if you mean it everytime you tell me tt
when i ask you.

not in a very good mood.
dont get into my way.
if not.
dont blame me for yelling at you.

200205

2005-02-20T11:45:00.000+08:00

im trying.
but nothing seems to help.
well.
the choice is yours.

tistaht

200105

2005-02-20T11:01:00.000+08:00

okk. not wearing my spects.
so there will be alot of typo errors.

i dont know whad to say now.
everything changed in a night.
like i've said.
i dont mean whad i've said.
sorry.
i dont mean it.
i know this time its really serious.
reached the very end.
whad to do.
i love you.
i dont want to let go.
but i cant promise i wont hurt you anymore.
the choice is up to you.

idiotic me.

God. lead me.

170205

2005-02-17T18:52:00.000+08:00

well. things and ppl will change.
okk. shall talk bout happy stuff now.
haha. amanda is damn siao.
so mad and weird.
asking me to comfort her.
ha ha.
but i loveeee her stuff toy tt she brings.
so fun to play with.
to tease her.
haha. didnt know she know how to speak hokkien.
she scolded me in hokkien.
den i scolded her back.
haha.
tts childish.
but fun !
i love amanda !
as a friend.

tml will be a long day.
sian.

i hope you and you will stop it.
and stop whad you wanna do that isnt nice.
you know whadd.

you werent there.

160205

2005-02-16T19:49:00.000+08:00

okk. im suppose to be studying.
shall post first.
had guides as usual.
abd its drill !
plus its the sec fours taking us. duh.
and those fierce ones.
and strict ones.
so scary. we formed a squad.
den once i was infront.
with charis they all.
den have to check dressing.
walaos. lift up the hand fro so long.
so suan and pain tt your hand can tremble.
till now still pain.
lucky charis beside.
den can rest on her abit.

haha.den was dance.
scolding. hmmm.
have to write 1500 words reflections.
well.
hmmm.

sitting at the back there between two ppl.
is really very distracting. cant concentrate.
needa revise working already.

140105

2005-02-14T15:54:00.000+08:00

it's vday !!!
haha. wishing everyone of youu
a happy valentines day !
haha. it's actually fun giving and exchanging gifts.
yeahhs. hope you ppl like my gifts.
okk. this sounds funny.
but yar !
isadora. you must like tt tutrle or whad
kaiyin darling !
you also must like the cow ! yep.
like whad i said in the letter.
the cow is good. haha. winkks.
you must love it. ((((:
haha. okkk.

got a forgot whad its called thing from jeralyn.
the one tt teletubies have it too.
i love it seriously.
so many colours.
haha. i love the cookies too.
and everything !
haha. x))

hmmm. my angel. ... gave me a pig !
so sweet !
haha.

dots.

110205

2005-02-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

sch was okay. yeahhs ! haha.
jerallyn gave a necklace.
yeahhs like os sweet !!
and msg me at 12 plus.
loveya manns !!
we are the lims !

the choc cake was ***
dont know how to say.
so wasted. hrmms.
thanks anyway isadora. i love it.
((((:

blahblahhs. feeling so high now.
whooohooo !! =Pp

after sch went to hougang mall.
tt place has many things to buy !
yeahhs. bought things for valentine.
had a strawberry cake from ade denise charis ky. yanying.
thanks a lot !
and the effort.
you all seemed fishy.
haha. lot ya all so much too.
hohoho. i'm mad now laas.
lalalalaas.
bought a lot of things.
looked totally like an ah sou.
dont know how to spell it.
i just need a baby to carry.
and the kiap hair thing.
ill look totally like an ah sou.
carrying all the plastic bags.
the shop got super many things to buy.
yeahhs.
but shant reveal the shop's name.
ha ha.

den ltr went kfc and do stuffs.
i went back to buy things for charis them.
cos they were there just now.

btw. denise. hope you are feeling better now yeahhs.
((((((:

2005-02-07T15:37:00.000+08:00

*`name :
yuan ting

*`D.O.B :
110291

*`race :
chinese

*`religion :
christian (:

*`birth place :
thomson blah blahs.

*`fav. numbers :
hrmms. zero?

*`last 5 digit of
12917

*`no. of siblings : two

*`right or left handed : left ! =)

*`no. of piercing : 2

*`fav colours:
lots. white. purple. pink. red. green. etc.

*`fav. ice cream flavour :
choc! not strawberry.

*`do you have a crush on somebody : lalalaaas.

*`whats the time now : 1530.

*`THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
hrmms.

*`SCHOOLS YOU'VE ATTENDED :
st francis xavier playcentre. plmgps. tkgs. cedargirls.

*`WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR HANDPHONE :
a picture of a pigg. ((: winkks.

*`DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST
NIGHT :
maybe not.

*`FIRST THING YOU THINK ABOUT
WHEN YOU WAKE UP :
more sleep ! =Pp

*`EVER TRIED TO SKIP MEALS :
yes.

*`GRILLED OR FRIED :
both

*`WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE TO OTHER
PEOPLE :
dont know.

*`ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK :
depends..

*` THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT :
God. family. friends.

*`WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
sharp things. hehhs.

*`ARE YOU WILLING NOT TO TAKE A BATH
FOR ONE DAY :
no.

*`YOUR EYE COLOR :
black

*`DO YOU MISS ANYONE :
=Pp bleahhs.

*`LAST WORDS
ilovettpig ! x))

030205

2005-02-03T17:41:00.000+08:00

its a new day !!
shall forget bout whad has happened.
first lesson. music. kinda boring.
geog. okk.
el. boring.
maths. ppl say mrs ng is boring.
haha. but i dont think so lehhs.
maybe im already used to her boring-ness.
thats whyy i don't think so.
but its kinda distracting at the back.
ms thang didnt come. was discussing bout the erm.
ipw? haha.
dnt. mrs noeline lee is like a radio. dots. rah.
yeahhs. den realise tml have to wear pe tee!
tt mean we are wearing tt with the sec ones!
haiiya. if anyone were to like mistaken me as a sec one.
im so gonna kill you.
well. joanne lost her shirt.
so we cant wear it anymore.
whad can i say?
hahas. think she doesnt want to lose it too.
hrmms. nvm. (((:

ohyaas. lichu very cute.
in morning she mouthed out whad she wanna say to me.
she wante to say tt i have the same pencil case as her sis.
so cute !
den after sch she asked me if i know whads she toking.
haha.

very tired. think gonna take a nap.
hoho.
tml will be a very tiring day.
sigh.

020105

2005-02-02T18:58:00.000+08:00

just finished the extrude hmwk from mr toh. haha
tml have dnt. sigh.
sch was okk.
sitting there isnt that bad acutally. haha.
charis lim is quite nice to talk to.
hoho.
had guides again. sighh. was really very tired.

can you stop being like tt? from last time till now.
youu are still like tt.
i thought you would change.
dont come and find me when you need me.
and leave when not.
don't treat others like tt too.
ppl may not say.
but they are just keeping their comments to themselves.
yeahhs.
if you want others to be true to you.
to be nice to you. to be there for you.
you have to do tt to them first.
dont expect others to be good to you
when you are not.
((:
i have nothing to say.

010205

2005-02-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

was lazy to blog ytd.
and im in the blogging mood now ! haha.
sch was okk.
changed places. sitting with amanda and charislim.
at the back...
actually i rather sit in front.
cos at the back i'll daydream.
even at the front i already dreaming.
i'll miss yanyi !
jojo.chaili! i haven mastered the skills for the coins !
hrmms. miss them alreadyyy.
well. it's actually good to change the things around me.
yeshyesh.
can know the others better !
ahhaas. yeahhs. tho i may not really like the place im at now.
will try to adapt.
yeahhs. ill try hard to accept you. and like you.
yepyep. ill try. ((:

feeling the stress at the starting of the year alreadyy.
i shant slack like last year already.
yesh. will work hard. yesh.
so dont be surprised if you see yuanting being hardworking.
haha.

i dont want to be left behind.
i dont want to go remedial.

Don't Frown Upon Challenges.
Many challenges coming up,
put up a brave front and conquer it,
instead of it conquering over You

well. ill walk by faith, in You.
in times of despair. ill run away, to You.
I need you here more than ever , God.

if i say tt i dont like you. tt would be a lie.

310105

2005-01-31T22:23:00.000+08:00

happy bday szemin!! loveya! ((:

300105

2005-01-30T10:43:00.000+08:00

hmm. dont know whads wrong with me nowadays.
haha. like to scold ppl.
ppl like dora tay etc. haha.
for those whom i've offended. pardon me.
cos haven been in a good mood for this week.
mayb cos too stressed up? or mayb even pms.
haha. kept telling charis denise i very tong ku.
plus my very unique haiiiiiiya.
btw. try doing my haiiya.
it helps sort of.
i love tt cheer tt wana waki wa wa aiya....
haha.
pardon me if ive offended you whether directly or indirectly.
yepyep.
but..
you..
im touched by you said.
but you've already shown me.
whad you chose and want with your acts and words.
ill rmb whad you said.
why is it always like tt you may ask.
well.
i promise this will be the last time.
last time has two meanings. (:
winkks.

yuanting. dont expect everything to be perfect.
going off to church. bye.

290105

2005-01-29T13:10:00.000+08:00

wanted to blog ytd. but blogger seems to have some probs.

joannna noes how to flip the coin. so i was learning from her. haha. very fun. shall practise later. ohyaas. she can also do a magic trick with the coin. though we actually noe how she did it. but we don't know how to do it. hoho. shall practise ltr. (:

fell down during jogging. fell at the place where julia fell. and my shoe came out. haha. andd now my skirt has holes. haha. all those who cared. thankyouu. ((: the others. i dont know. yep. den realise ade fell during jogging too. haha. so qiao. and jessica fell. got blood.

den had guides. new sec ones joined us. 4 of them. sherrie marina priscilla and i forgot the other one. realise priscilla is a pl lite too. hoho.

yep. had the international test. and i learnt the national. but read thru the internationl. the test was. i dont know how to say. i dont know how to do. okk nvm. ((:

yep. den played games. at first the juniors was in front of us. den they dont want to be in front. den dora said okk you all move to the back. and asked me go first. say whad ok one lar. i was really very pissed. she talk so much. den ask me go. when i ask her you go lar. she said dont want. walaos. i cant stand it lorhhs. den nvm. i go first. the first one. den she was behind me and said faster lar so slow. after the game. i told her off.

den the next game was the balloon one. she pulled my shirt till its like strangling me. hmm. nvm nvm. i noe im mean. but she must had offended me to a certain extent for me to be like tt.

the balloon game. haha. at the start i already drop the balloon. den valerie saw and return me the balloon.

den kaiyin called me from the second level. she was like yuanting! den i said huh. cos so sudden. den valerie came again. ask me whad patrol am i in. i said kingfisher den she said i talk for the second time. fell into her trap again. cos we werent suppose to talk.

kingfisher came in first! woohoo.

270105

2005-01-27T16:10:00.000+08:00

first period was dnt. i dont know how to do the car. so i did it at home the day before. yanyi helped me with the wheel. thanks alot!! den when i was printing dont know how to put in the paper den dont know why he said who help you create my friendster account and blah. mr toh go to my com andd did some things. he saw some things. den asked for my reg no. hmm. nvm.

ohyaas. during chinese. went com lab again. i realise bad things usually happen in the labs. ahhaas. tcher asked us to see a website. and my darling kaiyin. haha. asked me to go see her blog. and guess whad. i went to her blog and the song was liike so loud. everyone turned to look at me. i didnt noe its my com at first. den dont know why cant close!!! den tcher came. stood beside me. and look. den when it stopped. she asked me if i've read finish the blahh. den say blahblah. so paiseh laas. haiiya. ill nv forget kaiyin's blog and song. hoho.

jeralyn is into winking now. haha. everytime i see her we'll wink. this shall be our wireless hii* ahhaas. love to wink at ppl nowadays. esp sarah.

240105

2005-01-24T16:46:00.000+08:00

just got back home and had s shower. today was kinda okk. yepyep.

the first lesson was music. and kaiyin didnt come. =(( denise must be very lonely. we did the twist lick duck song. haha. fun actually. but very blur. dont know how to play. den me and kelly was like anyhow. ahhaas. the music room so cold. was freezing. and someone still came and put her hands on my face. hympf. =Pp

next was maths. got back the paper. yep. was confused of the formulas and blahblahs. yep. nvm. looking at the bright siide helps alot. (((:

lit was okk. animal farm again.

den chinese. tcher didnt come. so we didnt do anything much. another tcher came and asked us to do some things. but actually didnt really do. hoho. didnt have to mood for some reasons. dots. ahhaas.

after sch went to a shop at joo sheng dunno how to spell. to check on the shirt thing for guides. sining very nice. she brought us there. yep. she's very responsible. very like bargaining with the auntie. haha. but in the end we got it done. charis paid thirty bucks for deposit. like didnt think carefully yet. okk. nvm. =))

den walk back. very tired. me and charis was behind. dont understand how can sining and pamela walk so fast. qing gong. hoho.

luckily i got tt 53 bus andd went home. if not have to wait again. i was opp den saw the bus den dash across the road to catch tt bus. no car. the auntie very nice. seh's the same auntie tt asked me to raise and flag the bus last time. yep. ...

230105

2005-01-23T10:13:00.000+08:00

okk. wanted to blog about something. but dont know how to say. okk nvm. haha.

tml need go sch again. nonoo. plus wed got science test. haiis. this is my biggest worry. haiiya.

this post is actually useless.

haiya.

210105

2005-01-21T13:46:00.000+08:00

today no sch. finally can relax. yep. ytd sch was ok. mr ng didnt come. so surprsing. she is those type tt wont dont come. ahhaas. and dont have chinese. so sad. and during maths period. suppose to do maths. i did abti and talk to charis. haha. actually she was writing letter to her erm who. she wante to make the handwriting not look like her. so i helped her. was playing a fool and wasted paper. ahhaas. fun actually. haha. super lame. den she helped me write to my who. ahhaas. so stupid. haha.

science lesson very whad. i just dont like science. so cunfusing. haha.

den after sch took a lift from denise. me charis charlotte and kaiyin. haha. squeeze inside the car. den when we alighted. tt stupid charis toh. take her water bottle den spray us. she's totally mad lor. we also didnt do anything to her. haha. but fun actually. den 1o7 came. me and kaiyin wante to board tt bus. but was still talking to charis. den walk den realise 1o7 disappeared. haha. i didnt noe it went away. was like aye where is the bus. tt stupid charis toh. den after tt her bus came. we bulled her bag and dont let her go in. the bus was like only a few steps away. so near yet so far. den the bus driver look at us with tt blur look and dorve away. haha. li shang wang lai. dont know if can use it this way. but ltr on our bus came together. ((:

okk. im very naggy. looking forward to tml!

140105

2005-01-14T19:56:00.000+08:00

just came home. today very tiring. hadd guides. and drill. alamakk. liike very long didnt have drill already. forgot some of the commands. yep. hahas. actually drills are quite fun. i forgot to bring specs hook. but anger returned me the one i lent her last time. and only have one. so i just put one siide. den slanted. valerie keep coming and adjusting my specs. she very nice! hahas.

den broke into smaller grps. valerie was like in charge of us. she keep asking us not to laugh. haha. actually i dont know whadds so funny. jus feel like laughing. den once we sit down. she ask for volunteer. amira raised up her hand. but i dunno whyy and whad. she ask me to go. den i go laaas. ask me dunno do whad laas. ask me fall in fall out in front of everyone. and turn here turn there. so paiseh. den when i look at the grp. esp rachel koh. feel like laughing out loud canns? but luckily she asked us to move to another place. so she like didnt not.

once she said whads so funny or isit dont laugh. i dont know how she noe. im just smiling to myself. and she said from the front. yuanting its the third time i said not funny and you laugh. something like tt. so paiseh. wonder how she noe. hehhehhs.

today actually fun. den when i wante to bang. i kicked amira. haha. yepyep.

friday is my fav day! whiiee! cos its the last day of the week. friday is for resting. yep.

i looking forward to 22nd jan. yepyep. hopefully. i can be braces-free.* ((:

130105

2005-01-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

todays a very normal day. yep. the eugenia and slyvia very bian tai. ahhaas. i keep messing the up. den called slyvia eugenia tt day. haha. den riite. today i was memorising the symbols all tt for science. when i wanna memorise silver. the metal one. which is ag riite. i keep saying slyvia. haha.

yep. ohyaas. today went reces with charis. den go to the western stall and buy food. i took for charis and myself. i gave myself 2 forks. andd charis 1 fork. den i realiise shld be only one fork. den i dunno whyy. suddenly cant rmb whadd the other thing is. i took out the spoon. but it doesnt look very matching with tt fork. den put back. thought its a knief isit like tt spell? den ask charis whad is it. den its a spoon. blur alreaddy. ahhaas.

today chinese lesson listen to the wo men zhe yi ban song. so stupiid laas. hehhehhhes.

andd. i pushed pam towards charis but my plans* did not suceed. and still kana wack by pam! i rather being nagged by my mum den her super pain beat* hahaas. its the painest hit i've ever had. really! really like on fire. den the part she beat. like very hot. think i need a fire extinguisher when pam is around.

yep. at the end of the day. went to look for joy. and she wasnt there canns! argh. wait so long still not there. so decided to leave. yy yirong all admin ppl were there. and of course. tt eugenia was there. hahahas.

ohyaas. andd tml. juniors coming! yayys! wonder how the senior feeling is liike. hehhs. =Pp

dont be a copycat. winkks

110105

2005-01-11T18:12:00.000+08:00

happy bday jeralyn! x))

100105

2005-01-10T16:56:00.000+08:00

hehhehhhs. nothing much to blog about. but just feel like blogging. yepyep. had health checkup. so dots.

hmm. ohyaas. today during chinese lessons haha. me and charis were like talking talking den suddenly tcher call siying. which is charis toh to read the story. the last part. haha. while she is reading. dunno whadds so funny actually. den keep laughing. haha. den she cant read properly. dumb lar her. shesh. kidding. x) haha. so fun. =Pp

i've already told youu. but you think im kidding with you and just ignore it. whad i've said. im serious.

tml is jeralyn's bday! ((:

~erac reven uuoy

080105

2005-01-08T19:28:00.000+08:00

muscles aching. esp when bend down and walk down the stairs. hahas. very pain laas.

hadd yeoman today. wore tt guides uni. dots. ahhaas. didnt not how tie tt yellow colour thing. forgot whadd its called. den sinnig help me tie. so niice. thankks alot! hhehhsheehhs.

den mdm faridah. she talk to us. she like rather... cos we were doing nothing. den later she talk to me. dont know where denise went. she asked me who i am. den i was liike. yuanting. she says. ohh. so you are lim yuan ting. i was like yar. ahhaas. wonder how she noe.

actually today was fun laas. serving food. the currypuff dunno how to spell. very nice! yep kept some ood for ourselves. hahhs. but dots. next time den say.

yep. just came back from the thing. went for the erm church grp thing. haha. my mum wants me and sis to go there. yar. so we went there. i dont like to be new laas. den they ask who we are den blahhs. they prayed for us. asking us to accept christ or sth. but we already did. yep. den there was a girl beside me. ahhaas. she arhh. like treat me like. younger den her. but shes nice laas. she ask me blahblahs. feel like telling her. im older than you hohoho. im a meano. shes sec one. im sec two. yar! but i didnt tell her. i dont noe why. i like to be senior. winkks. x))

anyway. the mean thing. im not. im not. talking about you. dumb dumb. winks. (((:

070105

2005-01-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

tsktsk. today so tiring. firstly. there is pe. at the first lesson laas. den cos didnt bring wallet along. so ran all the way back and get it. took height and weight. i did not grow taller. remained. yep. den lessons was okk. super boring laas. was like. sian lar sian lar. haha. den yanyi also started saying sian lar. ahhaas.

den theres jogging. our class was good laas. haha. cheering. yep. and julia fell down. hmm. =x

after sch. there's guides. how should i say it? it used up my last bit of energy canns. actually not really laas. hahas. we had pt. but of course. it isnt as tough as those ccas laas. jogged one round around the sch. plus cheering. yepp. den. alamakks. we squad down and up and sing the my boney dong. frankly speaking. i've never heard this song before. its super weird okk. hahhs. whad get back my boney for me or sth. we arent dogs. why do we want bones? haha. den did push ups. the girl style. last time when i see other ppl do. thought its simple. seeing my bro like can do on one hand. furthermore. we did the girl style one. on the so called road. so pain okk. the ground is so sho rough and got small stones. hehhhehhs. really so pain. yep. serious. super pain. now my leg have blue black. when bathing so pain. okk. den we and ade was like at the back. some ppl. cos their skirts are longer so their knees rested on the skirt. so not sho rough. den i saw a leaf. and let my leg rest on the leaf. and ade did the same. ahhaas. it wasnt of much help in fact. haha. yep.

den played games. first game was the laddle thing. my patrol. king and fish. which is kingfisher grouped with ixora. andd ade was in tt patrol! hoho. heng. if not.. have to partner dots. so i partnered her. hhehhs. fun laas.

the next game was ok. how should i say it. the runner have to go to the front of the rows of ppl. the catcher has to catch her. fun laas. i don't know whyy. i just keep screaming even if im not like running. hahas. den shihan infront of charis move here move there. haha. like the coconut tree. hohoho.

the last game was. the most fun* game. actually fun laas. but pain. we lied down flat at the courtyard. den one by one roll on other body. when ppl roll. every part also pain canns. den when emeline rolls. she rolls until my side. den stuck or something. lie on top of me and keep laughing. i was like. ahhh. so heavy. bearing with the weight and pain. haha. but fun laas. haha.

den while waiting for my mum to come. called ade to ask her where she is. den talk. haha. den sort of caused her to miss her bus. haha. she lan laas. cant multitask. kdding. haha. she waited so long for the bus. haha. =Pp

tml have yeoman. haha. tired lar. have to wear tt uniform. dotsdots. have to wake up early. sighh.@ =x

whad have i done to you for you to be so mean? i simply dont know. the way you look at me. and things you say. it isnt nice. well. okk. wo ren. ((:

andd youu. if i tell you. doubt if you even care.

ok. nvm.

050104

2005-01-05T19:12:00.000+08:00

yepyep. today is kinda fun. ahhaas. den after sch had guides meeting. and actually can say everyone came laas. except for uma. heard tt she's quiting guides. =x and so 34 ppl came out of 35. hehhhehhs. yep. learnt the new steps. hahaas. andd the slyvia. she is damn haha. --. i look at her den she went to cover herself. and eugenia also madd laas. den they keep laughing. haha. fun though. yanying very cute. she asked me why my blog no tagboard. she was like i cant see your tagboard. how arh? in those kinda innocent tone. haha. ohyaas. andd anger detected* that i have a white haiir!@! hahhs. den she helped me to pull it out. its totally white. bffft. den i showed rachel. she was like isit a thread? ahhaas. this is the second white hair i saw. on my head laas. i kept it in my pocket. cant bear to throw it away. budden when i reachh home. its gone! hympff. me ade yanying and jess did maths while waiting for denise's mum to come. goodgirlls. hhhehhs. den we 5 squeezed into the car.

ade butt very sharp. i mean the bone. ahhaas. fun actually. yepyep. home sweet home. xoxo.

040105

2005-01-04T18:27:00.000+08:00

yep. today in sch was okk. yep. i love chinese lessons. and again. i forgot to bring textbk. den i told tcher i forgot to bring. she was like where isit? ... at home. haha. but she's nice actually.

the sec ones very cute laaas. so .... yep. their socks and skirt super cute. winkks. im a meano. but i was once like tt. when i came to this sch for the interview. den i haven bought a tie. so i button all the buttons skirt long long. skirt no tuck/pull out at all. as in all in. and without a tie. can you imagine? cos my mum ask me to do so. cos we need to see principal. haha

jerallyn's bday coming! she's one month older den me. x))

tt day i added in the mouse thing. click have stars. ahhas. i love it. gonna change skin soon. have already a skin ready. gonna use it soon. and add in a tagboard.

i tried. but i still couldnt have enough courage. things are holding me back. i always thought im someone not afraid of anything. but realise i was wrong. i wonder when i can ever overcome all tt. when i cann have the chance again to... perhaps. the answer is.. never.

040105

2005-01-04T18:12:00.000+08:00

okk. today was the second day of sch. still in the holiday mood. i think everyone is at holiday mood too. yep. the tchers are rather ok. i think we are considered lucky. we got mrs ng again! ahhaas. last time i didnt like her. don't know whyy. rmb when there was a bee in the class. den i was looking at it. den she said dont be distarcted or sth. and she counted my ca marks wrongly! haha. she naggy. but nice actually. ytd jeraly gave me xmas present. so sweet! hehhs. and isadora too. ...

ohyaas. ytd riite. the name list was going around for us to check if the details are riite. den i look at it. ahhaas. my reg no used to be 13. den i look at 13 for the name list. den i saw a lim thuan gay. i was like. about to change it to lim thuan gee. cos my dad is lim thuan gee. not lim thuan gay! ahhaas. den i realise. nono. my reg no is 14. not 13 anymore. i was like who is tt? and realise its adeline lim's dad. the name so similar as my dads. i was laughing den told charis they all.

i went home. den i told my mum. whadd happened laas. den she was like laughing too. and i was laughing. den my dad came in. i told him there is someone the name so like him! i told him its lim thuan gay. he was like ohh. den later he said. isit ahh gay? haha. den my mum was like maybe its ahh gay lehhs. den she ask me my friend isit stay at pasir ris. i said yar. isit have a younger bro. i said yar. isit bday on feb and before mine. i said yar.

den later youu noe. im so excited to find out. i love to play this kinda game* den the kpo mum ask me call adeline. so i call. den i asked whadd my mum asked me to ask.

is your dad lim thuan gay? yar
my dad is lim thuan gee.
is he ah gay? yar
my dad is ah gee
he got three brothers? yar.
youu live at pasir ris? yar
your bday on 6th feb? yar.
your ah gong is lim you leng? yar
my ah gong is lim you qing.
your dad isit born in the year of ----. yar
den realise both of us has the same great grandfather!
she was like laughing. haha.
my ah gong bro is her ah gong! so my dad is her dads cousin. den my mum says shes my tangjie? err. haha. so qiao canns.

didnt expect someone standing in front of me every morning. in my class for a year. someone tt i met when we were both in our mummys stomach. is actually her! hahha. so qiao.

haha. call me lame if you want. =Pp